worries.

a wave of panic seized me and hit me with an impetuous of a mack truck going 80 on the highway. tears sprang to my eyes and i couldn't even remember how to breathe. i lost control of everything, yet the only think i could think of was "please keep my baby safe." it was irrational, yes; but i couldn't stop myself from getting angry. it was the single-most selfish thing i've ever witnessed. how could they put their own desires in front of their child's safety? it was ridiculous and yet, i couldn't stop them from going. i mean, who was i to try and stop them from taking their own child? and still i felt more like a paternal figure than them. this was getting out of hand, and people were offering their sympathies with their "i'm sorries" and "i hope you feel better." it does, but it doesn't. no one really understands unless they've experienced this whole fiasco first hand. it just doesn't get any worse than this.