my sun after the storm.

hmm. i had a really bad day today. i finally let a few more people know about that "elusive not so much of a past" of mine. it was terrible. it always feels good to talk about it, but then i always feel terrible after. it's like those family responsibilities are too ingrained in my mind. it always goes back to protecting my family. there are so many things i wish i could do, but i never really can. and i was just thinking today, when i was sad, that it kind of scares me how much i depend on you for my existence when i'm sad. i don't know. eventually, i guess i can't always use you as a crutch, but right now, it feels so comforting to know that somehow, things will get better once you say: "josie! how have you been? we haven't talked in a long time!" even though it's only been a few days. i don't know. i think i just need a few days, even months, to sort through all this. and then maybe, only maybe, will i be fine.

4/20

so hmm. yesterday was 4/20. national weed day. i didn't even remember it until someone mentioned it in class. hahaha. mannn. my roll of film came out, but my favorite picture got blanked out. :[ boo. okay. i need to start my homework. i'm so sick of doing these things. just knowing the end of school is near makes me lazy. i also need to start on my spanish presentation.. :[ okay, off to do, or try to do, homework!

wheeeeeee

i'm a semi good driver. :] at least that's what the instructor said...i finally had my first lesson today! wooot. ahha. and i'm not dead..so that's an added bonus. anywayyyy. hmm. i know i wanted to write more, but i just can't remember right now. ahhaa. i do remember when cosgrove was gone though, and we had mr. miles as a sub. his instructions were: "let the debate groups who haven't gone yet get together to work. and for the others, allow them to work on their annotated bibliographies. but it it doesn't happen, don't force it." hahha. i love that man. but sometimes i feel bad for him because no one really listens and when the bell rings and he's still talking, everyone just leaves. :/

fhdsklfjsklad. i hate being absentminded. oh well, i guess i will write more later....if i remember.



EDIT.

i was feeling a bit nostalgic (when i was on myspace becuase i'm hardly ever on anymore..) and i decided to llok through all my messages. let me tell you, that was such a terrible idea. now i feel extremely sad and stupid. note to self: never, never, ever do that again.

woot.

so i just finished my second data sheet for cosgrove! woot. i'm so happy. HAHAHAA. i was prepared AND early this time. :] anyway. these days have been hectic, and i feel to tired to write about my days, but anyway. just something i wanted to share:

I've carefully attached the two files discussed in class today. Do not tear them when you unattached them. If you do, Google "Scotch Tape"and follow instructions.C

okay, this may sound weird, but seriously. Mr. Cosgrove is the cutest little old man. AHHAHAAAHH.